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My lips say I hate you, my eyes reveal I love you. Its hard to keep my head above the water when im being flooded by this impossible desire, this truth that tears me apart. The little things give me away and I wonder if you see it, through my pain and distress, do you see the one thing Ive tried so hard to hide? I still depend on you, your short presence gets me through everyday. When youre gone I slip right back into the dark corner of my mind where thoughts of saying goodbye reside. Stuck in this trench I dug and now Ive realized its gonna be my grace, this room of mine. It seems I cant escape. I dont know what you think of me, dont know if Im a lost cause. Whats wrong with me? Why is love so cruel? I feel another wave of breakdown headed my way as wake from blackened dreams drenched in chilled sweat, crying tears that will get me nowhere. Ive never been strong through and through, Im only human. I dont care if they resent me, civilization could never understand. I want to forget this misery, the misery Ive grown to hide so well everyday. Its just another twist in the rollercoaster, I think im falling now. Its a curse to want someone I cant have, to crave their touch to the point that it feels like my insides are being ripped apart. I should close the door and walk away while I still can, but i remain in waiting for the return; Even when the sun sets I can promise you that I will still be waiting with open arms. I suppose its not so complex, this situation, but its not that simple. Neither are you. Neither am I. Its hard to look you in the eyes, because im so afraid of what you will find within the dimness of my own blue eyes. So afraid of the truth you may find. I stutter and stumble, shake and stammer. I try so hard to carry on but theres weight upon me, crushing me. Theres blood everywhere, praying for mercy, I brace myself. Engulfed by the shock of reality and the depression, my opinions fall apart and im out of answers. Baby i dont know what to say or do anymore, Im yours to take and im youre to leave. I will always be here, endlessly, scarred, and always trying to look up, to keep my neck away from the noose. Panic slips down my throat when I imagine you permanently walking away, but whether that day will actually ever come or if it already has is a question that haunts me. I will survive, through every battle, I will keep breathing. The sky swallows me as I sit her and daydream of you, and me, and the tears, the pain, the joy. I close my eyes and for a short moment its just you and me, all my unwanted problems temporarily forgotten. Could this be the end...?
Literature
pain
your killing me
your ripping me apart
you walked into my life one day
and now I know nothing but pain
I tryed so hard not to let you in
your good looks was the start
of our terrible sin
I could take this razor and
cut you out
but your here so deep in my heart
my soul has withered
from all our pain
there is no peace for me
my tears have all dried up
there is no sleep
there is no escape for me
from the evil that is you
I wish you would
just leave me alone
take your pain and go
let me find the pieces
of my life
that you have scattered everywhere
the pieces that were once me
Literature
Silent screams.
Breathing, slowly.
Unshed tears building behind my eyes.
They will not fall.
No one shall ever hear my cries.
Silent screams behind my mouth
refusing to be heard.
The screams of my heart,
which was shot down like a bird.
The unspoken words,
on the tip of my tongue trying to speak out.
I may be mute,
but, in my head I shout.
Shouting for someone to hear my cries.
Shouting for someone to save me before everything dies.
These are my silent screams.
Literature
Without Lonliness
Without Lonliness
I get this feeling
when I'm sitting
in a corner
someone should
be here
I look around
I'm the only one alone
now I feel worse and
I continue to sit alone.
I see you walk by
stare at my lonliness
i can't tell
the look in your eyes
you go on your way.
I see you sit down
in a corner
like me
I look at you in your lonliness
I see no sadness
in your eyes.
Suddenly I feel
No more sadness
I sit there alone
but without lonliness.
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Gorgeous. i relate to this so well right now, down to the very last line